At times i often think, did i sacrifice too much for others?I Always think that i been helped others and others juz treat it as normal treatment.
For some, i can only blame myself for being too 'linient'.As for my poly classmate going genting, i told them if cannot find another 3 more ppl to satisfy the '4 in package', i told them i wont be joining them as i dun have much budget oso.Therefore in order dun wan other to pay more for the trip, i offered to drop out.
For GT,he got to noe a lot a lot of my frens n now he had all the lime light over him from all my frens.His wedding is 1 example.He only told me his wedding at 8pm, nvr even ask me if i wan go or not.Now he invited all of my frens over,leaving me alone aside.If he had the heart to invite me, he can oso sms my hp to remind or to invite rite?Is this call real life fren?Of did he juz simply use me in anyway he wan?
Pls dun act blur say dunno or wad...
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Sometime i think i really have to be more selfish.It doesn't pay to be good,n be the 1 who be good often have to sacrifice.I really sacrificed too much...n nvr get any repayment...I dun expect repayment...but i dun expect to be hurt...
Come to think of it ,I often buried deep inside without any 1 notice.Although 'attention' dun come good or bad,the fact is I wan to enjoy at least once being noticed.I felt that i m left out,n every 1 leaves me.This few days i kep having nitemare of frenz leaving me.I felt that no 1 is beside me...felt that every 1 leaves me for good...
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I think when i m dead, no 1 will be notice.I really hope i got some talent to be shown to the world....I WAN SOME ATTENTION!!!.
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BaHaMuT @ 8:09 PM
