Back to the dilemmna me.Had often come to think of this, I had been helping a lot ppl had been serving a lot of ppl had been sacrificing myself to a lot ppl.Do all of them rmb?Do all of them ever appreciate?Do all of them find me nuisance?Do...
I often find ppl really dun gives credits to wad i had done.Ya most of them will say directly to me, telling me i had done a great job... telling me i had been doing good all along... had been a great help...had...
(There are tons of examples, i dun really feel like go name them 1 by 1)
But that is not the scenario i wanted.I hope 101% is my sensitivity and juz a crap of thinking,as i often find that appreaciate thru talking really meant nothing to me.
I will rather ppl appreciate in the way they wrote somewhere else, they showed me the appreciation rather talking.They proved me right that my help has really been success...
Of maybe i should say...true appreciation is kept secret in the heart, and not to be revealed.Once its revealed, is not 100% surprise or rather, has no meaningful already.
So whats actually wrong with me?I been thinking too much eh?I dun really noe is it becoz lots of secondary school frenz scare of me becoz ,to them, i contain certain degree of mental problem.Been contradicting all along or what.But whatever,whats past is past.Maybe this is my prigrimage.I am born to serve mankind.To what the elders call me ti gong kia, is all about the past if it is true.And maybe a ti kong kia are really born to serve mankind.And thru this name, how i come to realise i had been helping a lot in this 18 years.Not to mention all the screw up things and all the disasaters create for my family, but of coz, a help is a help.If frenz and buddies out there are appreciate with my help and if can, rmb it,i will smile and leave this world peacefully.
I hope to be a leader sometime later.A good and responsible leader.A leader who will willing to gives help as much as possible.Though it may be imposible, i will try to strive it.
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BaHaMuT @ 9:40 PM
