A happy colour turned into an random awaiting unhappy colour.
As I was getting more n more smoothly in my work, yet always got thing screw and cock up. Today should be a happy day for me, yet something cock up and make me unhappy, sick, feel like dying the rest of the night.
I got a official stay out from my boss, and i promised him i wont give him problems, will give him double quality of work and wont late for work. And then? The fucking cookhouse cover ration thingy make me si beh fed up, pek chek and du lan.
This month is a fasting month for the muslim, and today they can have their break fasting at 1909. Yet the machine shut down at 1925 and before. I reach there at 1925 to cover ration and realise it was already shut off. CCB ppl still tell me till 1930. Somemore i rushing for my bad lock as there are really a lot pending list to do, so i stay back at office to do until about 1920. But it was too late. Somemore is raining.
The stupid thing is that the machine should shut off much more later than usual. Just 10 min allowance for the muslim to scan for their food. How it is to be possible? I really si beh pek chek over this, yet i cant do or solve or avoid this cock up stuff. Tml that Mr Yong gonna nag and nag and nag again. If just pure nagging, is still ok. I get all the nagging and fucking, thats fine. But i dun wan any trouble like punishment to our MT line. I am doing my best not to get any mistake and create trouble for MT line, yet this cock up stuff make me really going to be mad. Then upper study ask me why i stay back office and work leh? Why be a smart alec blah blah blah. Wa kao eh, i am just trying to get more efficient in work so that the next day can clear other stuffs. He still say i smart alec, really gek xim lor. Somemore i always feel got ppl behind cursing me wanting me to die badly and spread a lot of rumour gossip about me. Dear friends relatives and God, I am really stress enough. Why this people still coem and gek me? Are they psychotic or am i turning psychotic? I dont wan to get over depression and require medication as i am already on long term medication. If this gonna continue, i really dunno how crazy will i turn to be.
Pls, pls , plssssssssssss, pls guide me. Pls bless me. As God You said there are no ppl behind me cursing me, then problem must be me myself. Pls help me along, i pray sincerly to you that i really need more luck and more focus in work. Thank you a million. Please bless me tml will have nothing happen, i really thank you God a lot.
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BaHaMuT @ 10:20 PM
